Room 209, Wednesday morning

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Aeryn's been up for a while, but she hasn't gotten out of bed yet. She keeps looking over, watching John, looking for some confirmation that everything's either okay, or has gone completely wrong. Ever the optimist.

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John grimaces slightly in his sleep before huffing and then opening his eyes a little bit.

"Class?" he asks.

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"Not for a while," she tells him. "How are you feeling?"

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A small shrug. "It's okay."

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"Oh," she says. And has no idea if that's good or bad.

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He frowns at her. "What's wrong?" He's still half asleep.

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"Nothing," she says, which is a lie, but it's early. "Is he talking anymore?"

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He frowns again, sitting up and rubbing his eyes.

"It's manageable right now," he replies. "What's the matter?"

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She shakes her head, not wanting to make things worse at all.

"You realize I never thought you would hurt me," she says. "Ever."

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"Oh." He looks down at the blanket on his legs. "Sorry. Kinda of bad day to go into my dreams, I guess."

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"I never thought that," she repeats. She thinks it's important that he actually knows it.

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"I...didn't know," he admits. "It was an implication, a correct one, so it was there. I believed you didn't think that but he exploited the moment of doubt. I'm so sorry I dreamt that while you were in there."

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"Don't apologize. It's not your fault," she tells him.

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"Yes, it is," he says. "It is. I wasn't strong enough to control this and I needed people to come and pull me back from being insane and I don't listen and you're stressed and I can't do anything because I'm nearly insane."

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"John... You've been hallucinating- more often than not throughout the day- for over a week. Those would be extenuating circumstances," she says.

And she decides she's not asking him the other thing. She's not sure he can handle it right now and she doesn't want to go there yet. She'll deal.

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"I'm sorry about what you heard. I tried to keep that one away," he says quietly. "He wouldn't let me."

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"It's okay," she assures him, reaching over to touch his chin. "I just don't want you thinking that I thought that."

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"I don't," he assures. "I don't. I'm sorry I put all this on you."

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She looks over at the guy who isn't her boyfriend because of her new issues and says, "Tell me you're joking."

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"Um." He looks a little confused. "It was just...a lot and I know I'm cranky when I'm sick or something. You were the only thing that made me feel better and I put everything on you."

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"You do realize you're the only person that knows everything about what I went through, right?" she reminds him. "That's what we do."

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"I know." He nods. "This was just a lot for anyone and I wasn't the best person to take care of you this time."

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"You don't have to take care of me." She shrugs a little. "What was I going to do, leave you to deal with it on your own? I couldn't do that."

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"Why not?" he wonders.

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She frowns. "Why would I want to?"

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Not exactly what he thought she'd day.

"I don't know. Was just curious why you stuck so close is all."