Not Good at Nice

Aeryn doesn't have class on Wednesday, which is probably a bad thing, since she spent most of the day thinking way too hard about some of the things she'd heard last night. She's not one to panic, and if it's something John's been dealing with for this long, she knows there's no reason to freak out. Too much, at least.

Still, there's thinking, which is why her textbook is laying open on the table, as it has been since she gave up on it. She did distract herself at one point by going to get takeout from Ching Tai, waiting on the kitchen counter. She has no idea why, it just seemed like the thing to do.

Aeryn leaves Isabel's room and heads back to 238, because she and John need to talk about it.

And wonders if she'll start forgetting she has the damn key when she actually has it. But for now she's still reflexively reaching for it and then giving up and knocking.

Aeryn did not sleep. Pretty much at all. One moment she was letting John go on about kids because it seemed to be keeping him calm, and the next they were finding out that in that other reality, he killed her.

John's reaction is what concerns her. They don't even know for a fact that there is anything in his head, but it doesn't seem to matter. In the early morning when he at least seems to be sleeping, Aeryn spends some time hiding anything potentially dangerous in the room. She's not worried about him trying to hurt her. Not that she's big on leaving him alone right now. Then she comes to bed, drapes an arm across John, and continues to not sleep.

Aeryn comes back from 209, closes the door, and hits it. Because it's the first thing she's been able to do.

John is losing it. Badly. And it's while it's hard to watch, it's harder to leave him to deal with it. She's used to being able to hit or shoot the problem. She doesn't even know what the problem is. She's not going to find out yet, either, because he doesn't want anyone to know. Which she knows is stupid, but she also knows that forcing him to see a doctor will only make him close up and less likely to tell her things. Nothing will happen until he's ready for it to happen. And Aeryn has no idea what to do to help besides be there and not freak out.

And meanwhile, she has to go on with life as normal. So she showers, changes, makes sure she has her phone on her in case John calls at all, and heads down to ACJ.

Aeryn's not sure what to think after talking to John, but there's no possible way she can just say "Okay" and leave it at a phone call.

So as soon as she hangs up, she's headed down the hall, and forgoing forgetting the key this time. She goes straight for turning the doorknob.

After leaving Sanctity, Aeryn's really impressively agitated. She's on the phone as soon as she's out the door, heading back to the dorms.

And once she's back there, she opens the door to 209 and waits.