Room 209, Tuesday evening

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The week? Still not canceled. And as things just keep getting more and more uncomfortable, she's holing up in 209, which she really hasn't done since coming back to the dorms. Not that there's anything to do there, though there's no one around at the moment who will ask why she's just staring at the wall.


[Door's not open, but it is knockable.]

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Molly took a deep breath and knocked on the door. She really wasn't looking forward to having to have another conversation like this. She just hoped Aeryn was home.

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Aeryn gets up, opens the door, and figures her day probably got more awkward. "Hey," she greets her, opening the door wider to let her in.

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"Hi, Aeryn." Taking the wide open door as invitation, Molly entered the room. "I need to ask you a question," she said.

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And that's the cue to close the door. "All right," she says.

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Molly fidgeted and chewed on the inside of her lip for a moment, trying to think about how to phrase her question.

"If you were concerned about it, why didn't you ask me what was going on with me and Cam?" she finally asked.

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"My issues with it weren't about you," she says simply.

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"I don't think anyone's issues with it were really about me," Molly said quietly. "But, it still does concern me. I'm still a part of it. I'm actually the one who started it."

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"I didn't mention it the other day and you showed me just by being you that this is something you can handle," Aeryn says, because there's no sense in not being honest at this point. "I think you deserve better than Cameron, as he is right now. I'm also not about to tell you what to do. It's your decision. He, however, seems to need a kick. About a lot of things."

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Molly felt a lot better about what Aeryn said about her, but the other stuff... "I don't think you're being fair to Cam," she said. "Yeah, he has had some problems recently, but he is dealing with them now.

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"I'm being as fair as I can be with what I've seen," Aeryn sighs. "And then we're back to the part where I've seen none of that."

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"Have you looked or did you just wait for him to come to you?"

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"Not as hard as I could have," she admits, and she's really very calm when she says it. She has thought about it a lot. "I never had to. One of us had a problem, we found each other in the gym, worked it out, that was all. I left and he stopped doing that. He says he didn't know how to talk to me anymore, so I stopped trying. I take some responsibility. It takes two to let something break, and we both did that."

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"Then now it's time for you to both fix it," Molly said emphatically.

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And because she's been trying to figure out an answer to this question, she has to ask, "Why?"

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"Because that's what friends do!" Molly said. "You don't just let go when things get hard. Did he betray you? Did he kill someone you care about? Has something about him changed so much that you don't want to be friends with him anymore?"

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"Things didn't get hard," Aeryn says. "They didn't get anything. He's spent three months barely trying to talk to me like I'm the person I was when I left here. I didn't shut up about anything until after he did, by the way. Neither of us is the same. And who we are now? Doesn't work."

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"Did you try to tell him how you'd changed or did you just shut him out like your trying to do now?"

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"He knows my entire story; He's known the whole time," Aeryn says, and that does make her sad.

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Molly deflated. She went over to sit down in a chair and put her face in her hands. "I didn't know that because he doesn't talk about other people's secrets," she said before looking up at Aeryn again.

"So, now you're just going to dump him like Vala and Jaye did. 'This isn't working for me. Sorry. Bye.' And Cam is left a little more broken. Just when he was trying to get everything sorted out too." Molly's voice was sad and tired and she felt very close to tears.

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"Oh, because this is so easy here? He's made no effort to fix things, either. I would have let it slide if he hadn't actually promised he was going to be around more, then completely not do anything about that," she says. "I've told him more than I've ever told anyone besides John, and having him shut me out? Is not easy, Molly. So I'm supposed to go to him and fix something after he proved how well he doesn't know me, and what, get ignored more? And it shouldn't be your job to remind him be my friend, so that doesn't work."

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"I'm sorry, Aeryn," Molly said and stood up. "This isn't what I came here for. I just wanted to know why you never came to hear my side of the story about what was happening between me and Cam. But then, no one else did either. So why should you be any different?"

She walked toward the door. "I know I can't make you try to stay friends with Cam. I just thought I would try. He really is trying to fix things and it hurt him a lot for you to reject him now."

With her hand on the door knob, she paused and turned back to Aeryn. "Will you answer another question for me though?"

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Setting her jaw, Aeryn nods and prepares herself for it.

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"Do you miss him at all?"

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The answer's really more I miss what it was, but she nods again anyway after a long pause.

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"Then I hope you won't cut him off completely," she said quietly before opening the door and leaving.