Room 238, Thursday early afternoon

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Aeryn's learned one really important lesson in the last year or so, namely that there is a big difference between random emo and dealing with the fallout of being under a lot of stress. And despite yesterday's talk, she's okay with taking some extra time to do her usual run around the preserve a second time. She'd had a lot of energy she just needed to burn off.

So she's in a better mood when she comes back to the room, though she's not sure how long that will last, if today's anything like yesterday.


[For John.]

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[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"Everytime I tried, you didn't really wanna talk about it."

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"I thought I was talking about it," she admits.

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"A lot of this stuff I didn't know because I was afraid to push because that sometimes led to you leaving or shutting down."

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"It took a while to be able to say everything," she admits. "I was still figuring things out."

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

He nods quietly. "Anything else you wanna ask me?"

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"Is there anything you need to talk about?"

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

He frowns. "Like what?"

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"I don't know, but while we're getting everything out there, is there anything else bothering you?" she asks. "Not just problems with me."

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

He thinks about it for a moment. "I want you to know that I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure you're happy and comfortable when we move. I know it's a big thing, a huge thing, but I want you to know that."

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"I know," she says. "Do you really think it will be that difficult?"

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"I don't know," he says. "We're young and just starting out. It'll be tough."

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"We're good at dealing with tough," she points out.

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"I know," he says, nodding in agreement. "And we'll have some fun too."

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"You think?" she says, and this is the first time in the conversation she hasn't felt exhausted.

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"Sure," John says. "It'll be our place, just us. And we can decorate it and we'll be adults and it'll be a new experience."

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"What's the difference between that and what we do here?" she asks, curious.

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"Because that apartment will be ours."

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"This isn't? I mean..." One day she's going to learn things like this.

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"This dorm room isn't, not really," he says. "It's the school's. The apartment's bigger, quieter, more private and won't have cameras hovering around."

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"So it won't be like this?" she asks.

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"It'll be very different from this," he says. "And it'll be us officially living together."

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"Will it be like television? I've seen that," she says.

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"Will what be like television? Us living together?"

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She nods. "Yes. Only with more common sense than the people there."

[whitedeathpod.livejournal.com]

"Well, kinda," he says. "It'll be different because we're not the people on the tv but the basics will be the same."